alvin

2009-12-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

Felt just so helpless at point of time
Arghh
My heart really broke to see this.

2009-12-17T08:49:00.000+08:00

I did the gayest thing ever in my life
Giving a freaking big bear to someone I wished she would retain!

Thank God for today morning!
Atleast now I understand better
And I can't be gay anymore.

And now a problem
So irritating.

Williams horror joke is the best

2009-12-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

Let music express my emotion
What a lousy year.

THAT'S ONE POWERFUL+CUTE MILK I TELL YOU!!!
VERY POWERFUL!!!!
MESMERIZED O_O
Sheryl don't pwn me pls pls pls

2009-12-12T01:08:00.002+08:00

为什么我这么看不开呢？
我就是放不下。
为什么这一切会发深在我身上呢？
难道是上帝想玩我吗？
我的身命真可笑！

我令太多人失望了
对不其，瑞霖
你一定是很失望
很讨厌我
但是你明白这几个月来
我有多么的难过，多么的伤心吗？
你给我太深刻的影象了。

这个BLOG是让我出气的
有时，你读了一定不爽
真的对不其
你能说我"CHILDISH"
但是我不智道能真样做
只好把全部BLOG了下来。
我不敢面对你
也不知道应该对你说什么
就是应为这样，你说我是个"COWARD"
对不其。。。。
原谅我好吗？

Sorry if my chinese cannot be understood
Or I used the wrong word.
I dropped chinese.

2009-12-10T13:21:00.001+08:00

Yes I've been childish
I don't dare to accept the fact
This is how weak I am
I don't deserve anything
Cause I'm NOT mature unlike others.

Do you understand how much it hurts?

2009-07-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

TIME

2009-06-19T01:34:00.005+08:00

As my Facebook status
"feels like he's on a crucifix and didn't breathe his last after finishing his last words"
And when i remember
Fredrick Soong looking at me, asking " WHY?! ALVIN WHY!?"
I feel tired.
I asked myself
"Whats my talent?"

Chio-Ven Ngian Ah wen
This is for you, if you ever see it, that is.

2009-06-20T11:57:00.003+08:00

As you look away

I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

When you find you...
come back to me

2009-06-15T20:38:00.008+08:00

i lost my ranking
i lost at my own game
i lost my motivation
i lost my hope, pinned up so high
i lost
except You, Father.
today, i die with all this
tomorrow,
You will give me a new start.

2009-06-15T12:40:00.001+08:00

Today i learned
ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR LEADER
Lest you regret...
hallelujah
I repent Oh Lord.
Heal me..
i pray

2009-06-14T23:26:00.002+08:00

Showing care and concern is good
duh~
But the thing is
ARE YOU THE RIGHT PERSON TO DO SO?
What i usually hear is
"NO ONE ASK YOU CARE ABOUT ME!"
But yea, sometime this is really true..
which reminds me of jinghans pwning screams.

which leds me to this

"It's usually okay when we disturb each other because we know each other and we are closer,
but you disturb him until like this when you are not even close to him, of course he will get angry lah!"

i still remember...

there's a link there... some of you can tell and some of you can't

More care and concern from the wrong people usually leads to a bad impression and being irritating.

but it is really very easy to tell whether you're the right person or not...
RIGHT?!

Solutions

Don't bother
Don't try to talk to that person about " i care for you"
just be normal

This solution works, maybe not for others but at least for me.

if i get pwn by this, i have really nothing to say.

2009-04-27T22:56:00.004+08:00

Specialist Course Phase 1
Bravo Platoon 4

SPOT ME IF YOU CAN!

4 Days of Heaven/Hell.
Afraid of getting shave by army barber before even stepping to BMT
Have to tahan all the irritating shouts by your cadet lieutenant
And also irritating talks which make you fall asleep in the nice cold aircon room!
No electronic Devices other than your electronic Matador, Grenade Launcher and your Rifle.
Stripping&Assembling M16
Individual Field Craft
Taking General Specialist Knowledge test, wonder who failed :o
And the favorite Specialist Creed!
And the specialist shirt with red armpit!
BUT! There is GOOD FOOD!
Come on! who said army food is bad?!
I even heard people saying army made them fat!

2009-04-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

No trust left for me?
Or just taking precaution?

if so, i'll draw the line.
Clean

So now seen as the dropping one.
Indeed everybody is growing
but me growing stagnant?
heh..

i'm not trying to be funny
nor am i "acting cute"

time to get back...
Its seriously highly irritating

2009-04-25T22:32:00.003+08:00

Flipping through my chord book just now...
One Life, One Love... seems old..
Didn't know why i play it..
and boom..
there come memories of 2007...
When i was hungry for more...
When i first knelt and cry...
Emerge.. It was even better than Asia Conference....
I remember the time where 20 - 30+ people would be
sitting in a living room at clementi..
Even till 12am...
Not wanting to leave..
It was a joy to go for cell!
I was only 13!
Longing to grow up..
Longing to wear long pants...
Time flies..
people come and go...
everything have changed...
Not knowing what to do now!

And there....
leads to another song..
First...

"My first love..
Forever you will be...My first breath..
You're the life in me..
My first joy
The world can never take from me....
My covenant.. with you.."

Had a dream last night...
I miss you, always wanting to tell you...
........
........
:(
sighh

2009-04-22T23:17:00.008+08:00

HMMM
A QUOTE
"I think among all of them, *** like me most"
zzzz
oh please!

Grand Theft Auto Chinatown Wars?

Getting On To Perfection!
NOT THE BS BOOK! BUT BAHASA INDONESIA!

2009-04-21T19:15:00.004+08:00

Superior stuff.
Sexy Flame
Fancy some Frog leg Porridge?

Bang gang!
Bangs indeed.
Indeed a CUTE image
Sexy tiny red Adidas watch
Thick specs
And bangs.

WelloW WelloW Flirty FelloW

2009-04-14T19:29:00.003+08:00

God could say
Why should i serve you?
yet he wash his disciples feet [ serving the lower status ones]
and yet he died on the cross

so the ultimate question is
Is servanthood needed in our life?
what do you think?

servant hood doesn't mean you do whatever people say
You have a choice
only slave do whatever people say.

2009-04-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

Learning week in life.

I learn to not to use God's name in vain.
I learn to not to be judgmental.
Especially not to judge in God's name.
Never do so.

I learn not to convey message through blog.
Because it does not help
&
Because it does not present the sender's tone correctly and the receiver might think other wise
which creates more trouble for everybody.

2009-03-28T00:11:00.007+08:00

I'm fighting
Silently
I shall outshine
And take up the place.
It seems so impossible now,
But i shall continue
I will fight.

09, Lowest point of life.

At least i know one whom truly, sincerely care ..
encouraged
Thanks Boss!
I Love you!

2009-03-25T22:42:00.005+08:00

If God gives you a chance to go back in time and change the present, when will it be?

I will go back to year 2007, First day of orientation
The first thing i will do is to approach Mr Lau Y X J.
Secondly, to change the impression of people
Thirdly, to gym constantly and to study harder

I only want to set things right between people....
If only i could go back in time....

2009-03-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

Don't want to get married?
Don't want to pay for daily meals?
And also expect to get paid?
THERE IS ONE WAY!
JOIN THE SAF CAREER SCHEME!

Back From Specialist Course
VERY PISSED & DISAPPOINTED
I didn't get OOC when i was given a chance
I BLEW IT AWAY
I could have one more rooftop
just like our NCC t-shirt says
A CUT ABOVE THE REST
i blew it away

ENJOY SCHOOL PEOPLE!

2009-03-14T23:18:00.003+08:00

Hate camp
Disappointed, irritated
certain sights and sounds just irks me 100%.
Finally a good rest after 3days.

Had a dream
which was never real...
somebody, in outram uniform.. lower secondary..
She banged on to me, turned back and smiled..
i remembered clearly..

Three words came to my mind.. "How Are You..?"
i have reduced to being alone too...

I miss my short pants life!

Guess i need more rest!

Deuteronomy 31:8
Not a verse to be used whenever I'm down..
But a verse that i will use everyday..

NEXT UP
SPECIALIST COURSE PHASE 1
MARCH 17-20

2009-03-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

There's always a issue with humans
It's quite cute though
Sometimes humans like to start a quarrel
and when they got owned and don't know what to shoot back,
they will just reply " shuddup" or "i don't want to listen to you"
This shows that that they lost, in short, GG.
If this always happen, why start a quarrel when they always lose?
Psychology!

2009-03-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

This is what i call HOT!
Don't need to search for moles, she don't have it on her face.
Beautiful.
Been on YouTube more than ever
Many talents out there not discovered yet,
YouTube is the way! HAHA

2009-03-07T20:19:00.000+08:00

i've lost.. everything.